Monday, May 10, 2010

Passion?

Teaching.. the passion?

I've always like teaching. I still remembered, i used to pretend that i am teacher and teach my invisible students at home(i even set up chairs for my invisible students to sit!). The profession 'teacher' always appear in the 'occupation' section in my report book.

I'm the eldest at home. Parents always told me that when i was young, they were the ones who taught me how to do my homework and coach me along. Now that i'm the eldest that i'm able to understand the homework, it's my turn to teach my brothers. I used to teach them homework, well now i still do, just rarely.

These are probably the grounds of building up my interest in teaching.

After my secondary years, i taught in a Chinese primary school (in fact, it is my little brother's school) for about 3 weeks as a part-time teacher. It was a great experience cause i get to substitute different teachers, and get to teach different levels of student and different subjects too! (For those who don't know, i can read, speak, listen and write Chinese!)

Then, i moved on to a pre-school (in fact, it was my little brother's ex-pre-school) and taught there for almost 3 months as a Chinese teacher. It was real fun and i really enjoyed the time there with the kids! Kids are real cute, well, till they decided to turn evil.. =.="

So ya, anyway, i thank God for the opportunities He'd given me to experience teaching in 2 levels, the pre-school and the primary school.

Well, i am back to teaching again! it's in my little brother's primary school, again. (Well, it's convenient, so why not?) I could teach there till July, that's when i go back to uni and continue my 3rd year. Why i said 'could'? Cause it's still not sure, the school apparently wanted a permanent teacher, say like could teach till year end. Who knows they might manage to get a permanent teacher tomorrow? Or next week? Maybe next month? Hahaha.. If so, then i'l be planting grapes at home!

Now this is my problem.. It's only the 6th day of teaching, and i already started hating weekdays, where i need to teach..

Is it because of the classes i'm teaching? Well, i'm teaching Standard 4, 5, and 6, mostly weak students.

Is it because of the subjects that i'm teaching? Sadly, i'm not teaching English, but Maths in Chinese and English, Civic which is something like Moral, and Arts.

Is it because of the people i'm working with? I know very little teachers and i sit alone facing the wall! How sad!

Is it because i already don't like teaching? Oh no.. This will be a big problem then..

Nevertheless (Wow! I used 'nevertheless'!!), i still thank God for this chance to teach. It's more like a chance for me to see if teaching is really my passion. If teaching is not my passion anymore, gosh.. i need to find my 'new' passion!! If teaching is still my passion, 'phew~' then..

*Show me, God..*